I came here as a woman

I didn't just fall. No !

I crashed, crawled and burned.

I didn't just feel. No !

I kissed, loved and begged.

I no longer believe what I see.

Is this really me ?

I no longer feel what I feel.

Is this heart a wannabe ?

Words in my mouth and thoughts in my mind

make no sense at all.

Swords in my soul and clouds in my brain

want to prove me wrong.

"You are a warrior !", my mind says...

But I don't mind the mind.

I know, to be warrior

You have to be in at least one fight.

"You are victorious !", my mind says again...

Little does she know

I have no competition to win,

no warriors to war.

I'm weak on the inside,

But my building stands tall.

Trust me ! (what a cliche)

Trust me, I can still fall.

"So what ?", my mind says...

"Before they can fly, all birds fall".

I came here as a woman...

What to do ? I don't know...

I feel lives waiting inside me

And crying when my eyes cry too...

I came here as a woman

My soul is of a different breed.

I feel lives waiting inside me

Begging to be freed.

I came here as a woman,

For now, it's all I can be...

I'll go away as a woman

And set my soul free.

by Upanishada

(September 11, 2011)